I woke to the blaring rain storm this morning.  A blessing rain!   It is much needed. 

We have been in the Pacific Northwest for almost 2 years now and I have begun to practice a shift in perspective in lieu of the serenity prayer:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

The rain here used to have an adverse effect on me: I didn't like it as much as I can appreciate it now.  Realizing that we live in the rainforest, I have not only counted all the blessings the rain brings to our eco-system, but also the symbolic meaning of rain in my energetic, karmic and emotional bodies.  How lucky I am to have this opportunity to go inward in the rain to experience spiritual cleansing.

Because I have asked for it, much of what I need shifting in my life has come to my attention.  Little by little, they are revealed to me.  Not by a person, my husband, a best friend, or a sister, but rather, by Spirit, in The Silence and through the realization that a change needs to occur in the name of peace.  In the Silence, it is clear how personality (within all of us) seems to run a muck!  Much of it is totally sub-conscious (we don't know what we don't know!).  We are simply running the patterns passed on from generation to generation.  We treat others a certain way, because we were treated in kind.  We parent a certain way, because, to the best of our consciousness, this is all we know.

To grow in consciousness and to awaken means to be open to look at all this...and to be willing to say, "yes, this is mine to do...yes, this is shift-able." 

I sat down this morning and wrote out what is mine to do...all the little nuances that annoy me because I am annoyed that they annoy me.  I made a running list of anything that would give any possibility for personality to complain, judge or criticize.  That is, what I know does not serve me and if I don't take a closer look, I may be completely out of integrity.

For instance, a few would include:  someone bumping into me, spilling coffee right out of my hands and not having the courtesy to saying "pardon me!" (and be genuinely apologetic ~ The nerve!), mud being tracked in the house (especially after the house has just been cleaned)...and my all time favorite, what I could have, should have, would have said in a situation that could have, would have, should have made something better.

It is not to say that I am dis-allowing myself to be human.  But rather,  I'd like to get to a point where I can leave out the commentary - the internal voice that is constantly on.

I 'd like to get to a point where it doesn't bother me that coffee is every where and someone doesn't apologize.  I don't need to call him a jerk, or have a conversation about how un-awaken this person is, and how rude that was, etc.  Just that someone bumped into me and I spilled my coffee (where ever it nay go) and I had a reaction...and now, I get cleaned up.  End of story. 

I'd like to get to a point where I see mud in the house for what it is:  mud in the house and just clean it up.  NO "who did this?!" No "I'm always that one that gets to clean it up, etc"  Or perhaps, maybe I have these thoughts as understandable reactions, but after the initial reaction, I simply clean it up.  It doesn't serve me to complain but to leave me in a loop of dialogue that gets no where - the dialogue of complaint doesn't make me feel good...there is no upside for me here.

So, let me begin again - forgive work is key to release...as I forgive, I release myself.  I release my attachments and expectations for myself.  With breath and mind, I surrender to the power of Spirit ever present within.  These are mine to purify and cleanse, no one else can do it for me.  I am better than the voice of complaint, criticism and judgement - aren't we all?  Isn't the light within so much bigger than this reaction to occurrences in life?

My practice with these is to first hold them in love and be grateful for how they have served me in the past.  It is now time to  release them - to totally surrender them...especially my attachments to what I have no idea of how to transform (!).  I shall put them on cards, and in The Silence, ask for possibility / shift / light.  I find that language sometimes restricts creativity as it narrows down what is infinitely possible.

In anticipation for this years burning bowl, I plan to work on releasing these attachments thoroughly.  For now, the blessing rain, the falling of leaves shall be reminders to help me purify all that no longer serves me, breaking the ancestral, karmic and cellular patterns hidden deep within, to make way for a new peace.

May the blessing of the rain be on you—
the soft sweet rain.
May it fall upon your spirit
so that all the little flowers may spring up,
and shed their sweetness on the air.
May the blessing of the great rains be on you,
may they beat upon your spirit
and wash it fair and clean,
and leave there many a shining pool
where the blue of heaven shines,
and sometimes a star.

The moment I landed, I was home ~ energetically, spiritually divinely aligned with the feeling of One. 

It is amazing how in tune I feel when I am on Maui.  The stillness in the air, the grace and beauty that surrounds me, the love we feel, everywhere we go.  I have decided this "Aloha" shall live in my heart space.  From the space in my heart, I find aloha, and this is where I carry my home.

To The One, my husband on 11.11.11 and our Ohana

Beloved Ones ~

How often have I sat to ponder the mysteries of the universe?
Your presence in my life is divine - love, in its many forms ~
My blessings are as many as the stars in the sky!

The wisdom of the Eternal Soul navigates me back to my sacred family:
Nurturing, evoking cosmic and quantum growth
Enabling, thus, awakening and rebirth.

As I choose to see beyond what is, I embrace You!
My heart strings to you have only grown stronger overtime --
And for all the forces that have brought us together, I am grateful.

For whatever reason they have come to unite us --
Mystical, practical, transformational, educational, I am grateful.
It matters, not really the 'why, what, when, where and how.'

It only matters that we see each other  --
To remember and recognize, one another
To embrace, allow ... to make space...

In the practice of being, we take on the practice of breath
As we allow, we realize The One.
Our dream merges with what is Real.

Like the inhale that rolls into the exhale
The awakening to Life itself ~ the realization of Soul is continual:
Effortless and always divine.

For seeing me ~
For your love and acceptance, I am grateful.
Because of You and because of this ENORMOUS love, I am.

As in slumber, when we realize that we are dreaming, and want to awaken ourselves from the dream, I, too have this yearning to awaken myself from the illusion that this relative realm is Truth.  In fact, the reality of seeing, hearing, tasting, touching, feeling is not the Truth of who we are.

The unchanging, formless, ever-present, omnipotent energy we tap into once in a while is that which is True.  I am on a quest to awakening and feel called to share this with all those whom wish to awaken...perhaps, alas, I found what my work in the world is.

Indeed!  What a great reminder of Spirit and Surrender!  

I have lots of time to contemplate the being-ness here on Maui.  Our ritual of waking and jumping into the ocean is one of the most divine things in life that I truly cherish.  That is, because my life is made endearing and more memorable because of these experiences with my Love.  Even when we were locals, I often marvel at our vacation life style.  Being back allows me to remember that life is a beach! 

Life is what we make it.  If we allow ourselves to  remember who we truly are ~ Spiritual Beings having a human experience ~ we can surrender into life and allow the flow of divine guidance to carry us...literally CARRY US.  We need not struggle, fight, resist or get attached.  All that makes for an experience that entails work...doing-ness, rather than experiencing our true essence...being-ness.

This is not to say that I would condone a lifetime of being a beach bum, though, if that is what One's Spirit is asking of us, who am I to judge? 

Paying attention to the ease in my life around whatever I am doing is a great gauge.   It requires vigilant consciousness, patience and great (self) Love.  We must listen (both to what is going on and to our own hearts)...and we must choose from a place of awareness.  If we pay attention and trust The Guidance, we will all realize that we are not just divinely guided, we are Divinely Carried from one Spiritual experience to another.  Life unfolds, we are directed in amazing ways.  Life becomes magical, synchronistic...in the flow. 

It is Monday Morning, 9:30am Hawaii Time.  I have been in celebration all weekend - and awakening to Heart - for my arrival home.  Our website has been up for a number of months now, and it is only now that my intuitive voice wishes to speak.

I am on Maui once again, and my heart is full - alive - invigorated.  My heart and I are home here. 

This land (`aina as the locals call it) is a very special place.  For me, the island is a reflection of my spiritual energy, I feel nourished, loved, supported ~ by the loving souls around me, but, even more so, I am present to the One presence and Power of Spirit.

There is nothing I need to do, nothing that must be accomplished ~ I am simply present to the awareness of the NOW moment.  I am in the flow of a greater vibration - conscious life. 

I live from the heart - trusting, knowing that all is a manifestation of love.  As in heaven, so is on Earth.  As the outer, so is the inner.  With this, I live in alignment and in integrity.  I see less duality, I understand the paradox, I get it!

I have always felt that "Maui Ev" is the best version of me - I am comfortable in my own skin, there is nothing I need to prove.  My focus is to surrender the ego and be in the moment.  It is a beautiful way to live, really...to be in this practice of knowing.

In prayer this weekend, I heard loud and clear, "I am safe and supported 100%, I am divinely guided in every step in this journey of life and everything that happens is for my highest and best evolution." 

Inspiration like this comes easily - speaks through me freely while I am here ...on Maui, living from the space of the Heart.  I am reminded that I take my vessel everywhere I go and I simply tune in if I find that I ever forget the essence of who I am.  "I am that I am."

So perhaps, instead of saying, "I am home on Maui" I ought to say, "I home in my heart space..."  Realizing that Maui (and all that is Maui to me) is a tool to help me remember that I am that I am, wherever I am.  All I do is to remember this - and move from this heart space. 

God, Goddess thank you for the realization of Truth - I am that I am, wherever I am.  I am a loving being that is based in the space of the heart.  As I love unconditionally, I am abundantly loved.  With every action or choice in life, I am Divinely Guided. I listen and speak from my heart space - I give freely and receive abundantly.  I am carried by the vibration of goodness that is the sweetness of life - universal love:  always supported, always nourishing, always conspiring for my greater good.  For this Truth of knowing, I am grateful!  ...and so it is.