Today however was very good. I always know when I am in Presence as I do not wish to come out of meditation. Today was like that. As I brought myself to a beta state, I was repeating "closer to One" as my focus phrase. Closer to One, as I repeat this, I found myself trying to understand the meaning of the phrase or at least what it means to me. It seems a little like my body can be compared to a "divine" car. It occurred to me that in a very similar way to driving my car down the street, I am driving my body through life. If my windows are down and I hear all the hustle and bustle outside, it is easy to distract myself. When I have the windows up and I turn on the radio, it is easy to get lost in a song. When I choose to though, I can just be safely in my car and notice and experience all the things around or not. Meditation seems a little like that--being quite in my body and noticing noticing.
As I got closer to One, it was a little as though I heard God say "Decide." It was not really clear to me what that meant so I just stayed quiet. 'Decide, and I will move heaven and earth to make it happen." Okay, I will be with that. Next it was "Give". As I thought about that, I thought, give what? The message was that I have an ocean of intangible stuff inside me to give. Stuff that makes people feel good, makes people feel loved, and makes others and myself happy. That is what I should give and I should give it without reserve. Why don't I already do that? I don't know? Finally, worship. Now that is a pretty strong word I thought. Worship what? Worship God? That is so ethereal. . .I am pretty sure I worship God presently and at times even fervently. Is that not enough? We are all created in the likeness of God. We are all created from God. I have had a fair amount of logic classes and other classes such as physics and chemistry and by all physical laws and logical deductions, a reasonable conclusion may be that if we worship one another, we would, in a very real sense, be worshiping God. Well, with all that , I thought I either need to start my own cult or perhaps explore this a bit more. The idea that occurred to me was that I should try an experiment with my wife. Perhaps we should take a short time each day and worship each other. I am not really clear what that means yet but if she is willing, I think it will be fun. What is the worse that can happen, we will just love each other a little more.
A lot to take away, Decide, Give Worship--I'll do it though!