Today I meditated immediately after my first workout. This was new as I usually try to meditate before my first workout. Variety is indeed the spice of life though and spicy is good!
It was a bit of a rocky start with meditation. I had a hard time focusing and relaxing. After a short bit, I decided my entire meditation would just be on relaxing and letting go of every physical tension in my body. I started at my head ( alot of tension in there). I focused on the truth that I am safe. I repeated in my mind "I am safe. . .I am healthy. . .I am strong. . .I am happy. . .I live a peaceful life" I went back to body check. Taking my time to go from head to toe. Some music was playing on the stereo and as I let the music in, I would focus on wherever I felt the music in my body and I would relax that area completely. Anytime my mind would wander, I would go back to "I am safe. . .I am healthy. . .I am strong. . .I am happy. . .I live a peaceful life" Repeating this in any order that it occurred to me.
I started these phrases last week when I attended an assisted meditation with Rev. Billie Blain. She was reading from a book that I do not recall but the phrase "I am strong" was not clear for me. What did it mean? I am physically strong? Should I picture myself flexing my muscle? Should I picture my body lean and defined? I just couldn't grasp what it meant to know "I am strong", at least not in this context. In this meditation, as I repeated, I am Strong, it occurred to me that I am strong because I am closer to Source. I am strong because my judgement is sound and I trust my judgement. I am strong because I believe in me, in God, in the truth that I am on the divine path that is mine. I am strong because I am One with God. . .Gooood
Also, as I repeated I am healthy and let go of all the tension (bit by bit, again and again), it occurred to me that I have no reason to hold any tension. I hold tension in my body (I believe) as protection. Like when I am going to have to catch a ball, I take the position to catch and tense my muscles so I am ready for the ball. I boxed for a while as a teenager and when I knew I was going to take a blow from the other guy, I would tense the muscls to protect myself. Here though, in my meditation, I was safe. I had no reason to have tension, "I am safe." So I focused on "I am safe" I knew that I could even relax my heart and it would go on beating. I could release every bit of tension--let go and let God. I read recently (in a book on fasting) a reminder that anytime we are full, there is no room or need to let anything else in. On the other hand, when we are empty or when we make space, heaven and earth will move to fill the space. In the context of fasting, the idea was that if I want to allow room for change in my life, I needed to make room and fasting is great way to do that (see note). In this context, I understood letting go as letting all the tension go and because I am a child of god, in letting go, God (or my higher self) could restore my body to the perfect divine body that is God's. I mentally pictured every cell in my body as it was in it's perfect orbit and every organ functioning perfectly.
"I am safe. . .I am healthy. . .I am strong. . .I am happy. . .I live a peaceful life.
Note: The book I referred to is "The Fasting Path" by Stephen Harrod Buhner. It is an awesome read when one is ready for change.