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_____  I didn't realize it had been so long since my last post. . . my meditation practice has not actually been much better than what is reflected here either unfortunately.  Recently however, it has started back up.  I am not really sure why I stop (or pause as it were) when I feel I get so much from meditation.  This is something I will look at.  In any case, The last couple of days have been the crux of the New Year introspection.  The time when I take inventory of my life and really try to figure out what is mine to do this year 2012 Anno Domini.  Consequently, tis is what I have been questioning as I go into meditation.  The answer came to me very clearly after several days of meditation.  I was a bit down on myself for not having lived up to what I feel my potential is.  In fact, I was beating myself up daily with the old familiar questions of why haven't I done more?  Life is getting shorter everyday. . .What occurred to me in meditation is that I was simply reminded of what I already know but so desperately needed to be reminded of:  I need to do what is in front of me right now.  I have both short and long term goals every year but I get so caught up with doing the long-term goals, I lose sight of the short term goals.  Then, the long term goals start feeling overwhelming and when I reflect, I don't feel much if any closer to the long term goals and then I have wasted so much time being overwhelmed working on goals that are huge that I start retreating into a cave and not thinking any more because I do not want to deal with the fact that I am not meeting my goals.  I am exhausted just writing about it. . .This year, I am going to do what is in front of me.  This means I will start focusing on my short term goals.  I will take little steps and complete them well.  I was reminded of a passage in the Bible, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!' (Matthew 25:23).  It occurred to me that this is true with most thing in life.  If I take of all the things immediately in front of me I am able to move on to the next thing in life which is usually bigger and more meaningful or profound or lucrative.  It as Lao Tzu says "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.  One little step followed by the next is the only way to get there.  This is my new years resolution, I will be faithful and focus, taking one step at a time.  I will bear in mind the ultimate goals but I will celebrate the intermediate victories.  I will focus and be faithful to my truth.

Love and Blessings. . .Happy New Year!